the day

well, hari jadi yang rasa biasa2 aja. kalau selalu rasa teruja sepanjang hari, senyum memanjang, tp hari ni mcm hari2 biasa.

plan dgn leen nk makan di william. dan ada plan dgn reen mau buat sikit shopping lagi (tapi tak kompem). Tapi masih rasa biasa2.

Lunch hour ikut kak aishah ke bank, tukarkan not baru rm5 utk ayah. Mmg tugasan saban ramadhan saban tahun, penukar not di bank. hehe. Jalan2 sebentar di bazaar (hami.. ko tak rindu ke pasar jumaat tu? skrg maken meriah woooo). tiada yang menarik yang dicapai. masih berkira2 bajet utk aidilfitri.

Jam 3 terima panggilan dari mak. PakTam yang kelmarin di tahan semula di HUKM agak tenat, menurut doktor. Adik beradik dan keluarga terdekat sudah dipanggil dtg melawat. Aku pikir2, mau ambil cuti atau tunggu saja jam 5. Hm... alang2 sangat, jam 5 tros berdesup ke cheras. mcm laju sangat je, padahal naik tren dan cab. haha.

PakTam dah tak sedar diri, sejak pagi. ada satu tiub masuk melalui hidung utk keluarkan blood clot dlm otak. Oh, a few years back he was diagnosed with bone cancer (btul ke terms aku ni). Barah tulang la. It effected his backbones very bad.. but after session of painful chemo radio bla bla.. he recover. still, on his 2 years leave (he's a teacher), he seems ok la.

Last July he was admitted, quite serious. But he recover, again. seems ok la, but once u get cancer, it's not that easy to get rid of it 100%. Must have really strong will.

Few days back, he went for his check-up kat hospital ampang. Doctor found a blood clot in his brain and send him immediately to HUKM. He's still doing... well, can talk, can eat, can laugh. This morning he got a nerve attack. The doctor said, he's about to get stroke, and plus his cancer.. it caused the clot. Lebey kurang mcm tu la. He'd been unconscious since this morning. Her daughter, Ayu, studying in Nagaoka, Japan, will be arriving in KLIA 4.30pm tomorrow.

I don't know whether it's better to wish him well, or to wish him to end the years of suffering. Kalau Tuhan takdirkan dia siha semula, sihatkanlah dia. Alamdulillah... Tapi kalau takdirNya sampai sini saja hayat, mohon dipermudahkan sakarat tu. Amin.



This is a birthday that so biasa2 for me. As long as it's not that bad, then it's good enough. :)